A Few Thoughts On New Year's Eve

Today is new year's eve, one of my favorite holidays. Hard to explain why but new year's is such an important day for me, even though it feels nothing like a holiday. For me, it is one of the only days that has some kind of meaning, though in a vague, impractical and nostalgic way. This is one of the only times that I would permit myself to use the expression "emotional roller-coaster" and I'm going to use it now. New year's is never about new beginnings or resolutions or endings. It is the summary of all the times treasured, misspent; all the emotional roller coasters and their quite aftermaths and disappearances. It's when you look back and look forward and feel for a moment the immensity of history and growth; progress and deterioration. It is the time when we decide to reinvent ourselves and wish for better things. The truly hard part is to look beyond phases and states in life and realize that life is forever continuous:even when tragedies strike, even when you finally experience the moment of absolute bliss, even when you think for certain that time is irrelevant. The truth is time is never forgetful and numbers that represent time are forever accurate and infinite. It is not moments of greatness that define who we are, it is not the difference in numbers that make any occasion special, it is the finite footsteps and fateful journeys, the series of decisions and consequences that leave impressions on the world. So in this sense, new year's is so insignificant that it's a wonder why people celebrate it. And this is exactly why I love new year's. It is the way we seriously and ridiculously mark a day on the calender as a day of hope and forgiveness. It is the day that we shout in unison that everything is possible, for no other reason than it is the new year's. I truly feel the optimism of human spirit on this day, however inexplicable or unrealistic, we decide to give ourselves second chances and believe in ourselves.

http://www.abandoned-places.com/ somebody should explore with me someday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CerklfGdltQ perfect song for the new year's day

And lastly, I want to wish everyone a special new year's.

happy christmas, new year, birthday

Seeing that I'm officialy leaving in 12 hours, I decided finally here to do the responsible thing: finally updating my blog. I know that it's the Holidays season, and I'm expected to have a little Holiday spirit, even House did for heaven's sake, though for the wrong reasons. So however trite this may sound, I don't really care: I am going on a miserable trip, and I'm overpacked, not slightly surprising, of course. And I'm going to miss all of you terribly and Merry Christmas and I hope you have a happy new year. And thanks for all your gifts! So now that's done, I'm making a new cd, and it's being dominated by Muse Muse and more Muse. No one's home, or online. :(

AHHHHH, the CD is not blank, what's that supposed to mean, I just took it out of the box!!!

Here's a video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X_PgBJFxSg

Well, Sunny's gone, and I'm frustrated. Happy birthday month (almost) to me.