A Few Thoughts On New Year's Eve

Today is new year's eve, one of my favorite holidays. Hard to explain why but new year's is such an important day for me, even though it feels nothing like a holiday. For me, it is one of the only days that has some kind of meaning, though in a vague, impractical and nostalgic way. This is one of the only times that I would permit myself to use the expression "emotional roller-coaster" and I'm going to use it now. New year's is never about new beginnings or resolutions or endings. It is the summary of all the times treasured, misspent; all the emotional roller coasters and their quite aftermaths and disappearances. It's when you look back and look forward and feel for a moment the immensity of history and growth; progress and deterioration. It is the time when we decide to reinvent ourselves and wish for better things. The truly hard part is to look beyond phases and states in life and realize that life is forever continuous:even when tragedies strike, even when you finally experience the moment of absolute bliss, even when you think for certain that time is irrelevant. The truth is time is never forgetful and numbers that represent time are forever accurate and infinite. It is not moments of greatness that define who we are, it is not the difference in numbers that make any occasion special, it is the finite footsteps and fateful journeys, the series of decisions and consequences that leave impressions on the world. So in this sense, new year's is so insignificant that it's a wonder why people celebrate it. And this is exactly why I love new year's. It is the way we seriously and ridiculously mark a day on the calender as a day of hope and forgiveness. It is the day that we shout in unison that everything is possible, for no other reason than it is the new year's. I truly feel the optimism of human spirit on this day, however inexplicable or unrealistic, we decide to give ourselves second chances and believe in ourselves.

http://www.abandoned-places.com/ somebody should explore with me someday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CerklfGdltQ perfect song for the new year's day

And lastly, I want to wish everyone a special new year's.

happy christmas, new year, birthday

Seeing that I'm officialy leaving in 12 hours, I decided finally here to do the responsible thing: finally updating my blog. I know that it's the Holidays season, and I'm expected to have a little Holiday spirit, even House did for heaven's sake, though for the wrong reasons. So however trite this may sound, I don't really care: I am going on a miserable trip, and I'm overpacked, not slightly surprising, of course. And I'm going to miss all of you terribly and Merry Christmas and I hope you have a happy new year. And thanks for all your gifts! So now that's done, I'm making a new cd, and it's being dominated by Muse Muse and more Muse. No one's home, or online. :(

AHHHHH, the CD is not blank, what's that supposed to mean, I just took it out of the box!!!

Here's a video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7X_PgBJFxSg

Well, Sunny's gone, and I'm frustrated. Happy birthday month (almost) to me.

Hold On

It's funny how much has changed in the past few years, it's all been so totally, completely and utterly extraordinary and yet, normal. In some sense, I guess I'm no different from my peers, but I can't help but feel a bit odd. What's the word? Surreal. Even the boredom and the repetition of everyday life. It's still really hard to comprehend the changes and uncertainties in the past, and the ones facing me, today.
Hold On.

Nothing's Wrong

I had a frightening dream this morning. In the dream, I saw myself asleep in bed, and deeply disturbed by a reoccurring nightmare, always lucid, but nevertheless horrifying. I woke up and found the sun had filled the entire room, and I found out that I was going to die alone. The moment this realization hit me, I forced myself to escape from this imagination that was nothing more than my own creation. Overwhelming panic paralyzed my body as I opened my eyes and regained my breath. However, my mind refused to let go of the vivid image of me, in different beds, many in the cold hotel rooms I once rested in, some belonged to the homes I grew up in,not long ago. Some of the times I was alone, curled up in a ball, eyes shut only to save myself from the darkness. (what I thought I feared the most) In the other rooms, I was with people I no longer had contact with, they floated gracefully and effortlessly in the air and simply, stared at me, and said nothing. And each time I woke up instantly, only when I heard someone calling my name, all those names, all me. As if there was one identical message hidden in the nightmare or spoken by all the people I knew in those rooms who were guarding me. Somehow, I thought I was going to die alone. I didn't accept this understanding , I couldn't. Now when I think about it, I'm no longer haunted by what I saw. I was at peace with myself, and open minded, as if there's no longer anything to hold me down. I am no longer afraid of the things that I'm unable to control, and I no longer felt the need to be protected and kept away from what I feared the most.

Poems I love (#2)

The Unbeliever's Prayer

Almighty God

Forgive me for my agnosticism;

For I shall try to keep it gentle, not cynical,

Nor a bad influence.

And O!

If thou art truly in the heavens,

Accept my gratitude

For all thy gifts

And I shall try

To fight the good fight. Amen.

John Gunther Junior. 1929-1947

Poems I love(#1)

I absolutely love this poem:

A Light Exists in Spring

Emily Dickinson

A light exists in spring
Not present on the year
At any other period.
When March is scarcely here

A color stands abroad
On solitary hills
That science cannot overtake,
But human naturefeels.

It waits upon the lawn;
It shows the furthest tree
Upon the furthest slope we know;
It almost speaks to me.

Then, as horizons step,
Or noons report away,
Without the formula of sound,
It passes, and we stay:

A quality of loss
Affecting our content,
As trade had suddenly encroached
Upon a sacrament.

The Case Against Abortion

THINK ABOUT WHAT I AM SAYING
JOIN US
CHOOSE LIFE

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"Why do people voluntarily choose to abort their children?"
I'm sure words like "rape" and "Pro-Choice" come to mind when you are asked this difficult question.
We couldn't help but to feel sympathetic toward, let's say a fifteen-year-old girl, Kate, sexually assaulted and becomes pregnant. When she is faced with the decision, when she is given, or some argue, she is entitled to, the freedom of choice. Kate chooses abortion with little or no hesitation, keeping the baby simply isn't an option. She believes it is absurd even to consider keeping the baby, when "everyone else's doing it! Plus, I am the one victimized here, I deserve to choose the easy way." In this case, considering all that's taken place, including the assault, do you still pity this young girl, do you still consider her pure, innocent, and most importantly, only a victim? Should it really still be her choice when what she desires, determines the life or death for another human being? Is she old, mature enough to make the decision her both self and her child? How likely is it that in five or ten years, as an adult, she is going to regret her decision?
On the other hand, what if a wealthy, well- respected couple, Mr and Mrs X were to choose to abort their child, simply because they think they are still young, and they want to have as much as fun as possible without a "burden'. Or they think having the baby may cause their relationship to end? Should it really be the Mrs X's freedom to choose death for an individual human being? Should abortion be taken more seriously, it is not hard to find people like Mr. and Mrs. X who do not think it is necessary.
What is the true difference between abortion and murder, in terms of killing? Is there one? If you think there is, do you have scientific evidence to present to us, or is it simple matter of opinions or feelings?
Why are murder, rape, robbery, theft even trespass considered crimes and criminals get punished? We all believe that it is only fair for criminals to suffer the consequences, and pay for their harmful actions. Then why do the killers of their very own children get to live with little or no criticism from our society, is that fair?
Let's look at what abortion really means, it is "the removal of an embryo or fetus from the uterus in order to end a pregnancy". In many Pro-Choice women's eyes, abortion is no more than the action of ending a pregnancy. When put in this way, doesn't pregnancy sound much more like what the woman has to go through, it is the woman's body, thus she has/should have complete control of what happens? However, pregnancy means more than that, it means "the carrying of one or more offspring in a female's body". So, the ending of a pregnancy isn't only the ending of an experience for the woman, but also the ending of life for her child. In reality, most sane people would agree that abortion harms: ending of the child's life, harms the child. No kidding.
In this case, you would assume logically that, according to the previous sentence, people would consider abortion a crime, just like any other crimes mentioned above, but an even more serious crime, for it concerns the ending of life, ending of a human being's life who is pure, innocent and only a victim, for it is harmful!
However it is clear that enough people disagree with that for abortion to be legal, poplar and a lucrative business for many in this civilized world we live in.

Also, it is apparent that today, more and more people feel that it is wrong and cruel to punish victims of rape who choose abortion to end pregnancy, for they have already suffered greatly and they should only deserve empathy and support. What do you think? Does the suffering of one justify the death of another?
Look at this fact: in almost 99% of all U.S. abortions, the woman having the abortion chose to have sexual intercourse in the first place. Just over 1% of all abortions in the United States happen as a result of rape.
Even if you feel that a person like Kate should not be punished, then how about the rest of the people like Mr and Mrs X? They choose abortion not because they do not have the money or resources required to raise a child, nor have they suffered from a traumatizing experience like Kate. They choose abortion, most likely because like so many others, they would rather choose to do what's easy, than what is right. Often times, they do not understand or dare to recognize one simple fact: abortion is harmful, abortion is killing. With this ignorance, they are able to choose abortion without feeling guilty. They have no need to feel ashamed either, so few people today realize what abortion really means, the society, unfortunately, is just as ignorant. On rare occasions, when certain people do stand up and criticize them, they refuse to face the facts and science, instead they argue that they have freedom to choose (Pro-Choice), However, according to Abort73.com, (a website fighting against abortion and ignorance people have toward abortion), "....In the end, we are only free to choose so long as that choice doesn't kill or harm someone else, and our government exists to take away those choices that do..." Remember one thing, the unborn babies are unable to speak for themselves, they do not have the power to criticize, or even blame their killers. They are the ones who most need protection from the government, not people avoiding responsibilities and seeking the easy ways out.
Finally, I have two clips to show you. The first is a clip from "Scrubs", JD and his new girlfriend discuss whether or not they should keep her baby.



In this clip, we see clearly ways JD and his girlfriend consider the fact that "abortion means killing the baby" not so important. JD's selfishness shows through when he talks to Jesus about his reasons for getting an abortion, which is it might affect his relationship with his girlfriend. He bases his decision on the wellbeing of himself and his girlfriend alone, and fails to even consider adoption.
JD and his girlfriend's careless attitude on such a serious topic in a popular TV show goes to show just how people view abortion today, if I was to use one word to describe, it would be "Inhumane". Yes, abortion is a crime against humanity.
I do not know how to use any words to describe how disgusted I was after watching these two 40 second long clips below:





Readers, I guess there is not much left for me to say. If you agree with me and my decision to choose life, or if you are still unable to understand the message of this post, just keep one thing in mind: We could never learn to be brave and patient if there were only joy in the world. It seems to be so difficult sometimes, to choose to do the right thing, and the truth is never easy to handle. Use your courage and patience to do what's right, find the truth and defend it.

What Others Have To Say:

Lottie:

Well, I think in "Kate's" case, abortion is, well, I don't want to say acceptable, but yeah. There was an episode of House where a young girl got raped and House told her it would be best if she aborted because the pregnancy would have caused a lot of emotional and physical distress for the girl. Hopefully I would never be faced with that situation, but I don't think I could bear to continue a pregnancy like that.

June 25, 2008 6:05 PM

ME:

the question here is, how important is one's life, and who gets to decide? For instance, you said in the episode of House,(I love House), the pregnancy may cause the girl emotional and physical distress. However, should she get an abortion to avoid the distress for herself? It is choosing between short term or even longterm distress and murdering an innocent child. How much does(should) one value life(someone else's life)? Also, the distress only affects the girl herself, so when she chooses abortion, she is doing so to avoid pain and discomfort for only herself, and she is not caring about her baby, an individual human being. So this is also a case of choosing what is best of oneself or for others. And it is a question of right or wrong to give one the freedom to, frankly,to kill a human being even if the pregnancy or birth of the child may most likely cause the person pain. Which is more important? discomfort/life; self/other?