Poems I love #3

# 3

Leaves of Grass

By the Roadsode

Walt Whitman

Thought of obedience, faith, adhesiveness;

As I stand aloof and look

there is to me something profoundly affecting

in large masses of men

following the lead of those

who do not believe in men.

This reminds me of "the Fountainhead".

*art work by Peyton Sawyer, character from TV show One Tree Hill

so i'm just thinking about all the crap that has taken place my sophomore year and who caused my mysery. and the answer i think should include me. i wasn't being honest with myself/others, so when i thought i was being nice, i really was being selfish. I felt the need to make others happy, in order to satisfy my own ego. It wasn't about them, it was about me being in control, and being agreeable. even though i've always told myself to do things that make me happy, but in order to do that, sometimes you shouldn't make too many compromises. It not only hurts yourself, it hurts others. I was biased when I decided to hate others, but now I understand that their anger wasn't unreasonable. Nothing justifies what they had done, to me, but it just gives me more motivation of getting over it, completely. And so I guess I am sorry. I am.

I'm seeing it now, so yes I am sorry.

I hear the train passing by my house

around midnight on most nights.

Three minutes, and then it's gone.

the sound of its passage

somehow holds a promise

I want to see it up close,

I want to know that it's real.

that minds do change,

and people do leave.

that things do get left behind.

I want to know for sure,

that some do come back.. eventually..

when they are missed too badly...


but some do not, and are gone forever.


you have to change what you can't accept.

So I believe I have to try

to miss them more, and change myself.

But what is forever, or gone?

how do I accept something

that I don't yet understand.

Steve Mccurry, Katrina Vandenberg, the Extra & the Ordinary

It's strange how much we actually depend on living in the present.

It's harder not to...


"You want a big piece / of this world. You would love to have the whole thing."

~Katrina Vandenberg


Somethings just get to me, and others so significant I want to ignore...
I like the way my thoughts never connect.

"No one laughs at God at a hospital, no one laughs at God in a war."
~Regina Spektor

How do we get used to things so quickly? or rather why?
It's an disadventage sometimes.

Rain makes me happy, because it gives me a better reason to go outside.

Why doesn't time stop? Maybe it does, maybe we don't know anything at all.

Why do we trust ourselves?

The women of an African tribe make themselves more attractive by permanently scaring their faces.

George Washington grew marijuana in his garden.

In 1726, at only 7 years old, Charles Sauson inherited the post of official executioner.

It is illegal to be a prostitute in Siena, Italy, if your name is Mary.

The Toltecs, Seventh-century native Mexicans, went into battle with wooden swords so as not to kill their enemies.

and I wonder why I like the world the way it is.


"but aren’t you sorry you will never see / a tulip that would make you offer all / you own for the layered, translucent promise // in its brown paper wrapper?
~Katrina Vandenberg

James Jean, me, and my lost plot

Oh waiting is the hardest part...


So please please please let me get what I want...


Like listening to I am the walrus, when I'm not the walrus.

this above paragraph pretty much summarizes my life...
or,
Je ne sais pas quoi faire....

I wish life wasn't life, and death wansn't death.


and only the things that mattered to you, mattered...


I dislike this blog very much.

and when did "not like" equate "dislike"


I don't like this, does not mean I dislike this. it could mean simple indifference.


I don't like, but I don't dislike, I'm just not in like at all.


but I am. and this is ridiculous.


I wish I was a 29 year old woman, in a black dress and wearing pearls.


not really.

I wish I could choose the time and place to be a perfectionist.

I need to stop thinking about life for a while.


It's making me feel stupid, and uncreative, and small.

I just want to be wanted by you...

yes just..

dreamless sounds good...

I want to go to Provence and Santorini, right now...


and I want to write a sentence without the word "I" in it.

I am so not dancing in the moonlight.


okay here we go: how do you catch a squirrel?... ... You act like you are nuts.

I can't spell squirrel. Yes I still can't.


I need to get a grip... ...

I wish I was in Iceland, beneath the starlight, accompanied by Sigur Ros...

Arthur: Normality? We can talk about normality until the cows come home.

Ford: What is normal?

Trillian: What is home?

Zaphod: What're cows?


Oh life, I like you, do you like me?

Maggie Tayler&Quotes

"Turn up the lights— I don't want to go home in the dark. " O. Henry's last words, June 5, 1910

"Though earth and man were gone, And suns and universes ceased to be, And Thou were left alone, Every existence would exist in Thee."

"At this moment, there are 6 billion people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil that war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one."

"You wear your religion like a War Sweater. You ask for the truth, but you know you could do so much better, and you sat on your fences, you've screamed no retreat... So now what will your legacy be? So what will your legacy be?"

from now on, I'm just posting stuff that i stumble upon and find interesting.

http://amolife.com/image/art/oil-painting-by-leonid-afremov.html

1. Wealth without work 2. Pleasure without conscience 3. Knowledge without character 4. Commerce without morality 5. Science without humanity 6. Worship without sacrifice 7. Politics without principle

"My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind. "

~Einstein

She said "you're just a let down.

Another one of my mistakes,

I never loved you anyway,

I never did and I never will..."

She said "you're just a let down,

All your friends,They feel the same,

I never loved you anyway,

I never did and I never will"

~This Providence, "Letdown"

Inmate Murdered After Put in Cell With Killer He Testified Against


McALESTER, Okla. — A 23-year-old inmate beaten to death at the Oklahoma State Penitentiary had been put in a cell with convicted killer he had testified against.
Prison spokesman Jerry Massie says Paul Duran Jr. fought with one cellmate and then was put in a cell with Jessie James Dalton.
Duran was found beaten to death about 15 minutes later.
Massie says the two were not supposed to be put in the same cell and prison officials are trying to determine how it happened.
Duran and Dalton were co-defendants in the January 2002 shooting death of Billy Wayne Ray in Oklahoma City.
Duran pleaded guilty to a robbery charge and testified against Dalton who was convicted of murder and sentenced to life without parole.
Massie says investigators will present their findings to a district attorney who will decide if criminal charges will be filed.

"well, maybe there's a god above
but all i've ever learned from love
was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
it's not a cry that you hear at night
it's not somebody who's seen the light
it's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah"

written by Lenoard Cohen
covered by Jeff Buckley

Famous last words
"Turn up the lights, I don't want to go home in the dark"
.~~ O. Henry (William Sidney Porter), writer, d. June 4, 1910

Dad: Listen, have you noticed anything weird about our Billy lately?
Tony: What are you after like, a list?

Billy: Miss, you don't fancy me do, do you?
Mrs. Wilkinson: No, Billy. Funnily enough, I don't. Now piss off!
Billy: [smiling] Piss off yourself.

Tutor 1: What does it feel like when you're dancing?
Billy: Don't know. Sorta feels good. Sorta stiff and that, but once I get going... then I like, forget everything. And... sorta disappear. Sorta disappear. Like I feel a change in my whole body. And I've got this fire in my body. I'm just there. Flyin' like a bird. Like electricity. Yeah, like electricity.

~Billy Elliot
Just another movie that makes me feel like absolute crap and sunshine at the same time.

02/15 I AM WALKING
Christopher Howe is attempting to walk 6583 miles from Los Angeles to Brazil to illuminate our infinite potential.

Only shallow people refuse to judge by appearances.

We can forgive a man for making an useful thing as long as he does not admire it. The only excuse for making an useless thing is that one admires it intensely.
All art is quite useless.

There was purification in punishment. Not 'Forgive us our sins,' but 'Smite us for our iniquities' should be the prayer of a man to a most just God.

~the Forever quotable Oscar Wilde

Random thoughts on Valentines day 2008
Alone again.. naturally...

wow just realized, it's actually 2009 already. sorta lost track of time there..

Nothing ever changes everything, but does that mean nothing is absolute?

Best Ever (First Ever)

~Why last night was the best ever:
and also of course the amazing James Harrison with his amazingness. You Go 92!

and my dream guy and future husband ( why aren't you real?)

Sartre and My Thoughts

According to Sartre, people hate interacting with others by nature for three reasons: one, others take us out of an absorbed state of life where we only concentrate on obtaining what we desire and caring for nothing else. And when we are interrupted of this deep and complete absorption, we get irritated and threatened. I feel this way constantly. We are born selfish creatures and when we interact with others, we tend to consider others as competitors instead of colleagues. Secondly, others tend to objectify us, and for creatures that define ourselves as souls instead of bodies, seeing ourselves as bodies is simply unacceptable. It is often hard to connect with others as emotional and sensible beings, we judge others based on their physical characteristics. Therefore self-consciousness is created by our perception of others and what we believe to be their perceptions of us. And lastly, interaction with others means that we do not have control over how the other person acts or interacts. We like to be in constant control and it is a uncomfortable situation when we have to share this control with someone else. We no longer dictate the outcome of our actions and we have to sometimes face the negative consequences caused by the other person's actions. Also, it is apparent that very rarely do we meet people that share with us almost all the same beliefs and ideals. Therefore, it is also unpleasant when we meet people that we think are unreasonable or wrong. These ideas of Sartre's make me believe that it is remarkable when people are able to carry out almost authentic relationships. It is unbelievably hard to accept the other person and trust in him/her because you are actually taking a great risk. People don't really think about it when they meet others and choose to connect with them on a spiritual level. It is really a miracle that people stay friends and forgive their foes. However, it is also contradictorily easy, to open up if you just don't think about it and not take everything too seriously.

Politics?

Democrats launched an ‘Anti-Limbaugh‘ petition today after conservative radio host Rush Limbaugh’s recent statements claiming he hoped president Obama would fail. Seriously government people, get to work already. No one cares about the statements of some flake on the radio. Do something about the mess we’re in already and stop f****ing around. What is this, preschool?

Read this on Changethethought.com and I'm not going to add anymore to that, whoever wrote this said it perfectly.

So this is what I've decided to do. I figured that most likely no one's even going to back and read the older posts, not even the self-obsessed me myself. So I simply deleted them. Also, I changed the background, just because I wanted to see what would happen if I kept all the decorative elements of this blog completely unimaginative and boring. And lastly, I think that I am going to from now on, only post about things that are actually interesting. Sharing with people my feelings and complaints and most uninteresting details about my life is just very silly and unproductive. So here we are, a brand new blog. And hey what's with me always giving each post two thousand tags anyway, what do I wish to possibly accomplish with that? So no more labeling my posts. Alright then.

Best Surprise Ever

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